Covid-19. Hard to avoid the topic these days. I am writing about it, although I am already sick of hearing about it. It sounds like a futuristic movie or even some type of machine gun. It snuck upon us, slowly at first, then it suddenly became the center of our lives. For most of us in the West, this at first was just something far away: we saw images on a screen of places that looked unfamiliar and of people who spoke a different language. It was easy to sympathize (rather than empathize) and cast this away as an unfortunate circumstance that was happening to someone else, somewhere else. We humans are so good at dismissing what we do not like to acknowledge. Then, all the sudden, it came upon us too and we could no longer dismiss it. One day we woke up and overnight a silent fog had taken over and all around us was only deserted desolation. From one day to the next, the hustle-bustle ceased and the Fast West became slower and slower and slower and slower. A new kind of dark web forced social distance upon the global world of social media. In the global world where country hopping had never been easier, we all had to swiftly choose a place to call home as borders shut down one by one. Just one thing has stayed the same: media and social media. That fire has not ceased. Only the content is different: now we are overloaded by disheartening death tolls and government press releases of more restricting measures. Meanwhile, a new wide range of coping tools are crowding our devices: from ideas on how to reinvent a business, to funny COVID videos, to indoor workout sequences, cooking classes and Zoom church meetings. Our minds, bodies and souls are confused and conflicted by all this mess. Before we consume COVID-coping tools like we would a Netflix series, we might want to take just a moment to look inside and discover what actually hurts. We might learn a few interesting things. There is no question that the COVID monster is taking a toll on each one of us. Before we take action though, before we get to the coping stuff, the true question is: which one is our very own invisible enemy? Cabin Fever? Family dynamics that we cannot escape? Uncertainty about the future? What is that thing that mostly makes our breathing a bit harder and our sleep a little restless? Let’s not dismiss this enemy like we did the COVID at first, it did not work, as we all know now. To find out, we shall not aimlessly cope using random tools. Instead of getting to action, we might want to consider breathing through it, literally and figuratively. Our breath will run through the discomfort, like salt on a wound. It will hurt, but if we sit with the feeling, slowly the pain will start to ease. Then we can start breathing a little easier, to sleep a bit more peacefully. Then and only then, we can truly benefit from the zoom yoga sequences, workout videos, cooking classes, because only then we will have seen through some of the fog and deciphered the name of our very own COVID-19.